Satisfaction’s In The Reaction

 

 
sometimes
i think a lot about how we’re just the same

 
i see or imagine a reaction
somewhere
a thread
connecting us and i think
i get you

 
know
it’s only in my head
tho
that’s mostly just me in my feels and
my ego
dying to be right
i’m just so grossly desperate for love
that way

 
i want to believe
(and in that way aren’t we all the same?)
i need to believe that
if i can catch a little bit of truth
between us
if i can just tap into that
and
unlock you
somehow
you’ll be so happy i did
that i took the time to build on my inkling
of knowing that you will just burst all over
yourself
right through your humanity
and weakness
and mine too

 
and you’ll adore me for it
forever
pouring an eternal shower of infinite
renewable and constant love
down unto my cracked and dry
broken
heart

 
i want my reward
dammit
for loving you

 
well no

 
i don’t want it i don’t
need it
i don’t believe in you or
this stupid fallacy
this imaginary
glowing rainbow of true love

 
it isn’t real and you all can go on
and just
fuck yourselves

 
 
© 2016

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Candy Striper

Cloudy Blue Skies

Dyin’ Nice Us

Entrails & Innards

Every Artist Has A Vice

EXQUISITE OF HIS CHOOSING

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I Can Go Out Further

Johnny, Come Quickly

Michael J. Fox

Pink and Dissolving

Possibility Is A Girl’s Name

Satisfaction’s In The Reaction

The Cold Winter

The Sex Poem

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